Monday, February 28, 2011

Waiting For the End To Come

A couple of days ago I found this great new song Called, "Waiting For the End to Come" by Linkin Park.  It really hit me immediately and pretty much explains how I feel right now.  The whole song is great, but these words especially hit me.
Waiting for the end to come 
Wishing I had strenght to stand 
This is not what I had planned 
It’s out of my control
Sitting in an empty room 
Trying to forget the past 
This was never meant to last 
I wish it wasn’t so
I know what it takes to move on 
I know how it feels to lie 
All I wanna do is trade this life for something new 
Holding on to what I haven’t got

Right now I just really need a new start.  I am headed in a better direction.  I am at a crossroads, trying to pick the better path.  Some things you just don't have any control over.  You can't control other people, but you can control your response.  We don't plan on being challenged, but that is part of life.  We are tested to make us better.  Each person is responsible for their own actions.  I am responsible for what I do.  When you're in a tough spot, I know how it feels to wait for the end to come.  You can't wait for the day when that weight will finally be gone.  The struggle is what comes next.  What happens when you finally decide to make a correction in your path?  It can be lonely and confusing.  Sometimes you feel alone, but you really aren't.  Old habits can be hard to break.  When they're gone, you really see what's left in your life.  What's left are usually the most important things like family and friends.  Sometimes you just have to hold onto something you haven't got.  It's something you don't have right now, but is a goal.  Hold on to your ambitions.  Sometimes that's the only thing that can keep you moving forward.  The most important thing is to move forward.  Move on and don't look back.  Remember the mistakes well enough to not repeat them, but don't dwell on it.  It's gone.  I'm stronger.  Focus on being better every day.  Focus on the positive and don't ever go back to the bad that you have overcome.

Listen to the whole song it's really good.

1 comment:

  1. Michael you are amazing! I'm not sure everything you are going through but just know I am always here for you if you need to talk! I love this song and this blog post! You're the best! love ya tons :]